A Mom Without A Mom………..Mother’s Day Review..

So I’ve been thinking about writing this post all day…wondering if a) any of you really wanted to hear another Mother’s Day tale…and b) can I really be that honest? … I don’t know if the answer to either of these questions are yes …. but what I do know for certain is that I have to write it to find out…

Mother’s Day and me have come a long way.. a long long way.. When I was a little girl I loved making my Mother’s Day craft for my mom..anticipating the smile on her face when she opened my gift.. knowing that all she ever needed to complete her life was that tissue paper vase or hand print wreath… whatever it was she would love it…and love it she did..

Then life took a drastic change..You see my mom passed away when I was 11 years old…My world at that moment changed forever… I remember missing her so much that I would curl up in her closet and lie on the carpeted floor..looking up at her stylish 80’s clothes and well I would just breathe..Inhale…exhale..and repeat.. Why? easy answer..that was the last place in the house that smelled of my mom…her scent was all over every piece of clothing… It was the one place that felt like she was still alive…

Mother’s Day those following years was filled with sadness.. I remember my teacher telling me that I could still make the craft and maybe give it to my dad..or my aunt.. and my thought on that was..it’s called Mother’s Day for a reason..and I was a girl without a mom…

Time heals all wounds…except on Mother’s Day…as I got older I would just fall into this cloud of sadness the entire day…thinking about what every other daughter in the world was doing with their mom…while I tried to forget the last moments I spent with mine..

Then a shift came and lifted me from the sadness that filled this holiday….my children.. It all started with the birth of my daughter.. She gave me a chance to not only create memories that I always dreamed of having with my own mother.. She gave me a love that I truly never knew existed..and in those moments of clarity is where I felt the strong bond with my mother..

Being a mother helped me to understand and know my mother in a way an 11-year-old girl never could.. Helped me see her as a woman..an amazing mother…a fighter..In many ways she has taught me in her absence how to be the best mommy I know how to both my children…

Lessons My Mother Taught Me

1. Life is precious…don’t take a moment for granted

2. Make it memorable…find a way to create lasting memories

3. Reach for the stars..the only one stopping you is you..

4. Enjoy life and have fun…

and lastly..

5. Life can get redundant..so have fun with the simple things…go ahead and crank up the music and dance in your kitchen while you load the dishwasher..

Gotta say this Mother’s Day was the best one yet and honestly I can’t wait to celebrate many more with my amazing family!! I am truly blessed…I’m just glad I can finally see it…

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